you know sometimes you see a story and it seems so you think you understand it and then you glimpse something else you hear or see some other part of it and realized everything you thought you knew you don't know i'm tom harpur welcome to the big picture. many in the black community have long memories and today have a clear distrust for government run health agencies part of what drives each of you

know community to his or his torkel perspective with disenfranchisement just kiki is very very much aware of the knife in the communities we still have many communities are we're talking about and this is a conspiracy the government wanted to kill soft so maybe we still have people who still have that mindset people don't like to say. that a government would make an effort to destroy people but black people have had a history. of us experience that was carried on by the federal government for thirty years one thousand nine hundred to one thousand nine hundred seventy two and people said at that time this is a way to get rid of the black population so that's corriveau to have to think about . that kind of planning but we have an entire museum. in washington do seem to. the holocaust memorial museum which rag maintain it is the

most important the museum in the united states that everybody should go to that museum because it's not just about the death. six million people. it's about a government of intelligent people deciding to get rid of a population. they thought was a country amman and. they see adolf hitler use the term tear mitch in german animal people subfield and. as he spoke about the soo much interviewer through. sold people who think conspiracy theories conspiracy not set up a conspiracy is when one segment makes a play and against the interests of another segment and the other segment doesn't know anything about it. and when it comes to matters of mental health and

therapy. this is not guy. was my. past. to. have kids. this. is going to back you it's was. the trouble. was just. not been done. and i think until you know even in the medical school curriculum you know. when to talk about hiv you know important it is going to go into the next generation. is not just ignorance and stigma associated with a disease that in lack of compassionate.

by nineteen ninety five h.i.v. infections among black americans had surpassed white america. blacks accounted for forty percent of all newly infected h.i.v. cases. the most startling discovery was to learn that african-american women accounted for a greater proportion of new aids cases among african-americans overall in two thousand and three. it rose to become the number one cause of death for black women ages twenty five to thirty four and persis this day. after ten years from now. my husband and three year old daughter and beatrice

twenty nine discovered to have. my third child was born very sick. we didn't know what was wrong with her no one was able to tell us what was wrong she was in and out of dol spittal and by the time she was about two my husband began to get sick my husband wasn't feeling well he had a cough we kept going to different doctors kept misdiagnosing him first they said he had allergies they gave him allergy shots then they said he had tb and it tested him he's fine it doesn't have to be after about a full year of trying to figure out what was wrong and they then said ok your blood count is really no he went into the emergency room and they said well you probably have a bleeding ulcer so let's admit you to the hospital and let's check you for you know where that is and we can take care of it they kept misdiagnosing him because he was

a family man he was married we owned a home we had children in private school so we didn't fit that stereotype of what people with aids or a trophy look like people have histories people have done things in their lives. but he had been clean for over ten air so they didn't see any marks they didn't see anything that they thought was suspicious i guess that's the assumption and seldom ever asked him so what happened is that people's perception of who got a scot in the way. so by the time they figured it all out he did not have a bleeding ulcer and they then said ok we need to ask you some other questions you know have you ever done drugs and those type of questions and then he said yes several years ago when i was in the service. and they tested him and he came back

with full blown aids. fellow even while my husband was sick and dying and a half but all you know i made up i did like many of us you know i made up stories of what he had won telling the truth. because of discrimination because of fear because of him i don't want to people to be afraid of me he die on january first new year's day of course it all made sense then what was wrong with the baby and then she died. on in june of that year. i tested myself and my two other children thank god they were healthy and they've

given that virus but i. when i was diagnosed i was very sick i was eighty pounds i had no t. cells and i was extremely ill so i was diagnosed with aids diagnosis not an a.t.v. diagnosis i was given less than two years to live in the course of six brief months lost her husband of ten years first three year old baby girl and was herself diagnosed with aids. when she reached out to her family i'm blessed that i have the family that i do we don't talk about it but i've never felt like they were afraid to be around me for many of those newly infected with hiv aids silent to acceptance by family and friends is often not enough after everything happened i went to one support group then it was all guys they were nice men. and i was the only

woman the problem with that was many of those guys were talking about things like how do i tell my parents or my family that i am homosexual. they were those were dear conversations and they are fears and discussions of course when i brought up i am in panic i just lost my husband my baby i have an eight in a four year old i'm going to die so what do i do with my kids i have to stop working i'm now on disability i went from two incomes to a fixed income a disability check i'm trying to figure it all out so of course i think i'm going to die because that's what i was told and for women for mothers our our focus now becomes not even about herself. it's about our children what's going to happen to our children my children are going to be orphans i can't even stand to

be in the house with them and watch them playing because i was so heartbroken that i'm going to be leaving and i could identify with the guys in the group so i figure i need to talk to some women and see if my only one with this or or or what recognizing that her doctor was seeing other female patients. came up with an idea i asked my doctor if i could put a flyer in our home in her office. some of the women so the whole flyer in her office i put a secret phone line in my home because lots of family and friends didn't know i was dealing with this issue and hold the phone started ringing and i started we started talking to each other just on the phone none of us wanting to show our faces and as we became more comfortable i would meet them in a coffee shop we started giving each other support that way and then started to

support in my home where women will come together bring their children and. talk cry prepared for death and all of those things they were doing pretty much on. women's group. concerns. from the support group. quickly realize that services for women were non-existent if moms need to get to the doctor she was given a token to get on the bus to the doctor. she was given enough tokens to take the children to the doctor with her so basically she had no childcare she had no transportation so she couldn't go to the doctors she ended up not seeing a doctor for we became a network of women and we shared our our very limited resources we shared our trans. try to point men's.

care system. driving children. including in. the care system. reluctant handful of shy women. group brave soul. able to accommodate the growing number of. women in her home. and started the women's collective in washington d.c. . women are. we are taking care of not only our children. parents. say we have. our own health and. to take care of everybody. and i think we need to set up

a system that is. helpful. and support women around the support system. to help them to be able to take care of themselves.

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mission free cretaceous free in-store chargers free the arrangement three. three stooges free. download free broadcast quality video for your media projects a free media hard t.v. dot com. i think education is definitely one of the more important pieces to it because people are getting wrong information and they're spreading this wrong information out there we learned about the technical aspects of how you catch it what it is what it stands for why not like percentage is and things like that and who are mainly affected. yeah just like general education knowing that stuff like when i took such that in school you never really learned about h.i.v. we just learned late about puberty and about a oh how to put

a condom on but they don't really teach you stuff like hiv prevention and who falls into that category of who has it we're minimum incensing we're going to show you are like men having sex they don't shoot at all either you know it's very important to know about going to times about man and woman having sex and the risk of what happens whenever a female on a femur on you know now we need to broaden it a little bit larger so we know you know we need we need to be straight you need to be gay but we need to know information isn't there i think it's also important that parents talk more with their children about it we don't talk a lot about that with us kids even today it's still kind of hard to broach that subject with the young people but it is so important. my mother was famous for this let you do it in the back you will get a little she says it all goes out to the mother i'm a burden turns to grab you you know. that you doing that are you going to get. mugged i'm pretty sure that's not cares that's how you catch it ok it's always the

amount out there how to really get it she was like a lot that was a game as disease i thought they were given to us and i thought that's how you get it just from doing that i do have a big dislike nose and i get it i find it funny how when parents automatically assume that your child is going to be shared i mean and they kind of force me to it that is why a lot of conversations about hiv and aids don't really it doesn't really happen in the household because you're taught. you're kind of taught by your parents to be straight and you know to talk about anything that involves your sex life because you're not street is conneally you know taboo to bring into your house it's a code i'm not going to talk about you know things that i can get you know by having sex because my mom doesn't want to hear about me having sex with another guy and for me is it's not even about just having sex with the same sex or opposite sex it's not having sex at all so it doesn't get beyond it just don't have six magical

way and so you get married type stuff just on sex and you know procreation what if i'm thinking about it like you know i'm interested and all i can talk with my parents about it i don't feel like i can talk to them about that because they already say what they expect that as soon as it so i'm like ok if i do have sex what will happen i lack your pride but what about this and my kids. i don't know what they are i'm young i don't know an week slim only we don't even get to that because it's a doll have set i think many more open dialogue about it people are still very very nervous about talking about their sexual health and their sexual behavior talking about sex is pretty normal with my group of friends but when the concept like a child be an online education step s.t.'s on it. that's not their home when it's really awkward but we do it all. it's not like it's not existing but usually when i hear other people talking about is using life all some mind unattractive. on the

person not the sauce or. the negative not inspiring or educational but with my personal friends my close friends issues like let me educate people or we just talk about trying to figure out well what we know what's true and something to saying i'm. on my place here on the plane on the press on the plane with myself. healthy and can like. to. keep in mind that with the abundance of information now available about h i v. snub their noses up the statistics they believe that with vitamins all they have to do is pop a pill if they should become hiv positive. community like we desensitize ourselves so much from aids i mean people as i always

a mental disease if you can manage it you've got to have the park as the manager if you don't have insurance. because i don't think the average person can pay fifteen thousand nine hundred dollars in rent and still pay two hundred dollars a month for medication and for those for whom money use not a concern there is a physical cost to taking drugs to fight hiv take four pills of one for about a pill i take a bactrim pill because to keep infections and stuff away and then i take superior model rocketry which is helps with the pain in the morning. and so i take that as the clock in the morning i wake up thirty to take medications because. i do two hours to recover from second the medication and i go to bed i have my pill container and i bottled water in the mornings when i wake up i just open the pill bottle take the pills drink the water may back down let the side effects go through this nazia stomach pain tiredness everything that i go through just let it all go

through enough that's why our good. data is that. even well treated even with the best drugs someone with age is going to live a shorter life than someone doesn't have aids and i have a lot of friends on these drugs at this point both in africa and here and you know if they could go back and change that and live a life free of a trivium i know for sure for certain that they would. with thirteen percent of the population yet we have the highest rate of infection again it goes into not a single answer. if i looked at how blood pressure what we'd be if i looked at colon tensile where will we be if i look at breast cancer where will we be if i look at. one. it is clear that the tremendous growth of hiv and aids in america's black community is driven by many factors yet no

matter whom we spoke to physicians clergy political leaders and those afflicted with the virus it was clear that the real culprits behind the epidemic are ignorance miscommunication and most importantly a collective silence about how it is transmitted what it means to live with hiv and its phenomenal spread across black america. if we sincerely want to help the spread of this barbarous discipline problems that frankly is substantially preventable if there were really good public health campaigns if people were really focused on this problem you certainly should be able to have a lot less a trophy a lot less human suffering and you would and that would mean a lot less energy and resources both in that a societal level but also personally trying to deal with it down the why would someone thirty seconds i was in london in the mid one nine hundred eighty was saying you couldn't turn off the television without seeing the commercial about age

having a child be a child be you know can protect yourself be attested etc you know day after day after day after day after day after day after day and that's a public health education came out of the unit we have not hand at a level of intensity and the public out there can cation. caillou still don't have a bill we are still talking about any increase in the number of cases and we need to talk more to people who other people trust in the communities like for example the hair salon the barber shops we go there all the time we have conversations in there about everything you know so you know getting the right information into places like that places of worship getting the correct information that's a beer can can really help kind of hope this disease if they do think that you can more conversations better you don't necessarily need leadership from the church

because you really need is leadership from somebody right so well that happen to have been the case in the communities that was there and the purveyor of fear is quite right larry kramer was a real leader in this conversation and in zimbabwe and in uganda in congo there were singers who are leaders in this conversations and in other places or political leaders who didn't maybe could be almost anybody can write maybe somebody has to stand up and take this on it doesn't matter who it is it's just long as i person cares in his her system. kelly and i think what's going to eventually happen as far as in our community is that we need to start letting young people and even young people just people in general understand the power of their voice because eventually was going to happen is that. the new media is going to be the cell phone ok because as they see things put the video you know because now cell phones you could upload photos directly to you tube all these different things is that now they have the power to tell the story. as more people living with hiv step

forward to tell their stories we will no longer be able to ignore them and pretend we are safe the conversation must be taken to the schools inside the homes and throughout the community to eradicate the myths and fears that feed this preventable disease. today african-americans account for fifty percent of all new h. i.v. infections every year unless we start talking to each other we will become dependent on drugs to live. with succeeding generation. start the conversation.

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underground labs hiding beneath the rain as would you fall from. one of the african. conflicts with my knowledge she's one of the mythology districts knowledge and if so with no fee so how did it travel across borders just laid all out to look for waters if you didn't want. to sit there never seen the lentil can identify with the life he's been in this disease feels in the event of being given the right to kill this disease and it's significantly prevented from being ignorant confused or ambivalent not bulis may be different but we suffer the same she. sees you are is the name of the gays most don't see the symptoms.

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