and so not only had ldi market. and so not only had we not been alerted to this ldi issue, we were actually being blamed for the consequences. so there was blame shifting going on from the bank of england and the authorities onto the government over an issue we had no control over, no site over . no control over, no site over. and we were just we were not prepared to respond to that. i mean, when i got into number 10, we'd had a fairly new team recruited. people weren't necessarily experienced in these issues. and what happened is the economic establishment did use that to be able to lay the blame at our door. >> well, they got their way . in >> well, they got their way. in the end, you had to resign and it must the whole thing must have been the whole thing on a personal level. it must have been horrific . been horrific. >> what was in those types of circumstances , you know, my circumstances, you know, my absolute focus was making sure that we didn't end up in some kind of gilt crisis. now, i, i, i didn't want to